Posers?

Anymore it is almost impossible to get any good pictures of my children. Either Mahryka is doing that goofy face that she does lately or Kenidi isn't paying attention at all or they just want to make funny faces and not smile for mommy.... so the other night when we were done getting ready to go to one of our Christmas parties I asked the girls if they would please let Momma take some pictures of them since they both looked so pretty.



These are just a few that I was able to take that turned out half decent. They aren't the greatest quality but I was taking the pictures from my phone because I couldn't seem to find my camera :) Kenidi always wants to pose like some little supermodel. It cracks me up!! She is too damn funny!!! As you can see, Mahryka is not too keen on Kenidi hugging on her but she put on her really happy face!!!





These last two are my favorite... Mahryka has a half goofy smile in this picture but I still thought it was cute. She is just getting so big and so grown up. It makes me sad to think she is 5!!! If you look real close, you can see Kenidi's home made bangs LMAO!!! What you can't see in the picture is how she cut big chunks in the front that "taper" around her face and how the back of her hair is so messed up. As mad as it makes me, she is humiliated about it so I think she has learned her lesson.



I love this last picture. I know that I am biased but I just think that my two little girls are the most beautiful kids ever!!! They are my little angels and I am so blessed to have them in my life. Without them, I don't know how I would go on. They are my strength and my happiness at a time when my life is in an uproar. I hope that they always know how much mommy loves them and would do anything for them. Ok... enough with the mushy stuff... They are just damn cute and that is all there is to it!!!

This is for you Beck...

i am: a MOMMY!!!

i think: my kids are getting too big too fast

i am happy: whenever I am with my babies

i have: an ex husband :(

i miss: my mom and my sister

i fear: death and losing my kids

i feel: alone most of the time... even though I am never alone

i smell: freshly copied paper.... yes, it really does have a smell

i usually: go to bed early

i search: for my shoes every morning

i wonder: if my divorce will ever be final.

i regret: few things I have done in my life

i love: my family

i care: about all of my friends

i tell: everyone what is on my mind!! (Not always a good thing)

i worry: about EVERYTHING

i am not: a mean person like I used to be :) we all have to grow up sometime

i remember: very little...

i believe: in true love.....

i dance: with my girls whenever we get a chance

i sing: with the girls ALL the time

i don’t always: make the right choices

i don’t like: people that judge me

i write: down my feelings all the time. It helps me release!!!

i win: all the time. (even if I dont)

i lose: my mind at least once a day :)

i wish: I could buy a house for the girls to have their own space

i never: exercise... but I should

i listen: to Mahryka sing every morning and night... It is therapuetic to me :)

i don't understand: life.. but I take it day by day

i can usually be found: at work...UGH!!!

i am scared: to lose my girls

i need: new clothes

i forget: everything lately.. I have been soo flaky.. I have too much on my mind!!!

i am happy: that I have my girls... without them, I would be lost

i tag: EVERYONE!!!

Giddy Up!!!

A couple weeks ago, the girls went and spent the weekend with Auntie Jamie, Uncle Travis, and their cousins; Maika, Anessa, and little baby Kaidance. They always look forward to the time they get to spend over there because the Kings live in BFE and the girls can run wild. Not to mention they have tons of fun things for the kids to do.... Anyway, this particular weekend Travis took all the kids, minus Kenidi (she wanted to stay with her Auntie) to ride horses over at Nana Kings house. Jamie just sent me the pictures of Mahryka on her horse so I thought that I would post a few of them for everyone to see... They are adorable!!!

This is her Princess wave!!! I have so many more pictures of her that are so cute but I don't want to post them all... Thank you Auntie Jamie for always inviting us to come stay the night and for loving us as much as you do... we love you so much too and we value all the time we get to spend with you and the girls....

Who needs hair??

Last night I went over to my grandmas and the girls decided that they wanted to stay home with my dad. When I got home, I walked into the bathroom, and this is what I saw. I could not figure out what it was....

SO, I yelled to Kenidi to come tell me what was all over the bathroom floor. Honestly, I knew it was hair but I could not figure out where it had come from.... That is when Kenidi let me know that she cut her own hair!!!!

Now if you look real close, she cut the front as close to her scalp as she could. She has this patch in the front that is shorter than a mans hair cut and then she has pieces all over that she just cut half way.... I about died. I wanted to laugh and cry and yell all at the same time!!! I didn't want to laugh cause she would think that it was funny and the next time she found scissors, she would do it again. I didn't want to cry because she already felt bad enough about it and I couldn't yell because it was partially my fault for leaving scissors in her reach.... so this is what we have. A beautiful little girl with beautiful blonde curly hair and a short patch in the front... I tell you what, this little one is going to be the death of me...

Oh Christmas Tree...

So this year the girls and I went over to my grandmas to help decorate her Christmas tree. My little grandma is such a sweetheart. She totally let the kids have full reign over the decorations and the tree. I thought you all might get a kick out of these pictures...













You will notice in a lot of these pictures Kenidi has a hard time being lady like at all.... And Mahryka looks like a little orphan. It doesn't matter how much time I spend on her hair and how cute I dress her, she always ends up looking homeless















Look at Mahrykas smile in all of these. Lately she has been doing this smile that drives me insane. She looks like the biggest doofus!!! I love her nonetheless... My little Richard!!!
















This is what the final product looked like!!! They were so proud!! Needless to say, grandma Becky had to fix it once they went to bed!!!










These pics were just too cute not to post. Decorating the tree just wore Kenidi right out.... She fell asleep watching cartoons like that. She is so funny. When she is tired, she doesn't care where she is or what she is doing, she will go to bed!!!

My First Time...

So this is the first time that I have ever really done anything like this. Becky is helping me out and I will try to keep up with it and do it right but I might screw something up here and there :) As soon as I can get some pics to put up I will :)